I know I Am Bad..Forgive me

New term has just started. Everything is not as smooth as anticipated. The schedule of timetable becomes a horrible nightmare for me. 3 months are not long, but I could not wait any longer for 30th of April. Loads of assignment, upcoming quizzes and midterms, and frequent lab and tutorial sessions -- This is how dull my life in Canada. Yesterday, my roommate played Chinese New Year songs. It made me recall the previous celebrations of Chinese New Year. Chinese New Year is just around the corner. At this time, there should be festive atmosphere, continuous playback of Chinese New Year songs, decorations and goods on sale everywhere in Malaysia. Sardonically, in Vancouver where many Chinese people stay in, I could not feel the atmosphere of this important event. Worst of all, it will be same for the coming 3 years. What ?! ?! Am i gonna to miss CNY for four years ? Omfg.. I miss the gathering of all relatives in my grandmothers` houses, I miss the time we having dinner together, I miss the scene when my mother and my aunts preparing dinner in the kitchen, I miss the time I listen to the conversations between my dad and my uncles, I miss the air of excitement in such a big family, and for sure I miss the time when my friends and I visit others`houses from day to night, I miss the time I stay at my friend`s house grambling and chatting, I miss the experience of being warned by police because of playing fire crackers and I miss everything about CNY!!!

Indeed, I don`t really like studying in Canada. I prefer my hometown, my country, and the culture. If I opted to study in local U, at least I can go home every weekend. That`s the difference between weekdays and weekends. However, the weekdays here seem persist endlessly. For any other unknown reasons, that really make me prefer studying in local U than studying abroad. I used to feel boring staying at home. BUt now I really cherish it. Think further, after four years, we have to embark our careers. There will not be much time left to stay at home. And, at the age of 22++, we are not teenagers anymore. We are the grown ups. We are mature at that time. We will miss the time when we were still teenagers, staying at home having teenagers-like routine, argueing with parents, and .....etc. Erm.. I can`t really explain these with words. These words might cause some confusions , but hopefully they will bring the meaning I am trying to express.

Indeed, studying abroad has its pros and cons, depend on the person himself or herself. Some might think that it is a golden opportunity, but this type of thinking will only persist until the time comes, when he or she realizes something important in the life. If I am given the chance to remake my decision, I will opt to study at local. No doubt...

``107 days left``, ``9244800 second left``...These are the personal messages of my friend. For sure I am not the only one who possess the feeling. April 30....I can imagine we boarding the plane, arriving KLIA, and going home with parents who are awaiting us in the airport. Everyone is anticipating for the important date. There comes the 4 months, having a good time in Malaysia.....